When I was convinced that romantic relationships weren't for me and had given up any expectations, the space for this was created. I am letting go of other expectations - my concepts of who "I'" am and my notions of who "you" are to create space for us to simply be.
Each day is filled with wonder - new ways to see the world to share with you.
"Well, I can say that after this experience I have a very clear perspective on what this energy is all about. I will start by saying that it is NOT about a great Romantic relationship between two people. It is not about "finding the other half of your Soul"! While the idea the someone out there may hold the key to your happiness, and that all you have to do is find them and become whole, may be deeply comforting, it is indeed just a form of co-dependence. Maybe the ultimate form of co-dependence. "I need you to be whole". This is just not true. Each of us must become One and Whole within ourselves before we can venture into the area of the Twin Flame.
The Twin Flame is not a "person" that you find, but a spiritual experience that can be created and re-created. It is an energy that is within you and within all living and sentient beings. It is the energy of the Source and the Creator! It requires maturity, love and acceptance, to be strong enough and compassionate enough to engage this energy and its tremendous power. It is indeed the raw power of Creation based in Love and Desire and Manifestation. It is the original template of Love as given by the Divine Source.
For the purpose of the New Earth is to work as a Group and in groups and communties. Those who can access this archetypal energy and release the power of their inner being through the energy of the Twin Flame will be those who create and manifest peace and love on the planet.
The Twin Flame in Personal Relationships
Since the Twin Flame is not a person, but an experience, the idea of looking for a person or discovering a particular person is no longer valid. The long and painful processes that some people enage within in order to be "clear" enough or loving enough or whatever else, is just an illusion that comes from the old energy understanding of what Love is.Love is not something that you have to work for and attempt to develop. It is not an exam that you need to pass and the Twin Flame is not a graduation present.
You are already LOVE MADE MANIFEST. When you can fully accept that - then you are ready to engage with the Twin Flame. While you are still trying to heal yourself and clear yourself, you are not love made manifest, you are in illusion, and you will not be able to hold the power of the Twin Flame, which burns brightly and without illusion.....The key is Self-Acceptance! You Are the God or Goddess - you are the Divine Spark in Human Form. You Are the Twin Flame energy in manifestation. You are what You Are!
When you can fully accept this Grace and your own Power, you will attract a partner who will accept both your power and their own. For the essence of the Twin Flame as a personal relationship is to attract a compatible soul mate with whom you can create a balanced and harmonious relationship. Then you can work together to allow the Twin Flame energy to flame forth. In this process, each partner holds a particular energy, whether divine masculine or divine feminine, or electrical or magnetic, or whatever you would like to call it. Then you allow your partner to hold one energy and you hold the other, and together you recreate the Divine energy of Creation. Together, you become the original One Soul, and then you separate and become the Two again. It is this "pulse" that is so important. You cannot be "One" all the time, you need to move between the "One" and the "Two" in order to keep your own identity and your own personal power, while also engaging in the Power of the Two who become One. The Cosmos works on this principle of the "breath" of God - inbreath and outbreath. Pulses of Love and Energy. One becomes Two. Two becomes One. The Power of Creation and Birth.
It is a great privilege to share this energy within a relationship, and it is not a matter of finding the "right" person in the outer world. It is a matter of being the right person for yourself and releasing all ideas about searching for another person to create the One. When you can be the One within yourself, then you can also Be that with another, and with others. So, those who truly wish to experience the Twin Flame within a relationship, will first create harmonious and loving relationships in absolute integrity and truth. First with themselves, and then with others. Then you can create a personal Twin Flame relationship. This will not need to destroy other relationships. You will not need to leave your present partner to "be with your Twin". This is an illusion, and is usually used by people who lack the courage to make changes in their lives and relationships. Your "twin" is primarily within you and is a part of your energy and being. When you can be with yourself in absolute integrity and love, then you will be able to "be with your twin" in a relationship of absolute integrity and love. This will hurt no one and will bring only Love and Joy. Anything else is not a Twin Flame relationship.
... And, only when you honor them, can you receive and hold their energy in love and compassion. And then, you can become Twin Flames, when the energy is this pure and clear and when all is held in absolute truth, integrity and love. ..."
I wish you the best with the life you hope to create for yourself with only the advice of working on living in the real world and not dragging others in your delusions about yourself and love. You understand why that is neither fair nor healthy.
Allowing myself to hold on to the love is what I choose for myself. I want and need nothing from it. I simply have decided that it is my strength to have been capable of this love. Its not a loss if I allow myself to let it remain in me even if you wont and never were able to return it in the ways you had promised you would. I own the love and it is mine to choose to hold on to.
I absolutely hope you find happiness, peace, answers and someday a love you wont fear and push away. The best in you DOES deserve it. Try to stop believing that you only deserve to be unhappy. You're so very wrong even if I do fully understand where you got those ideas. I do hope you find a way of letting go of those incorrect messages you were given.
Loving you was a gift I tried to give you. I love myself enough to move on, let go and remind myself that that gift is ok for me to continue to hold. You may never be able to understand it, accept it or even care about it at all. Yet I can allow myself to do with it what I wish
I love you, always will and wish you nothing but the best in life.
You asked me if I wanted help to my car, but declined. Kinda wishing I had said yes and had you walk with me. I wanted to tell you thank you using your name, but your beautiful hair was covering your name tag....
Would like to get to know you and talk to you a little more...
....this me trying to forget all about what we had and shared together. All the moments good and bad.
But dammit, I just cant forget you.
...this is me doing what I keep telling myself to stop doing.
And that's falling for you even when your forever gone.
....this is me moving on and forging a new path in my life without you.
So why am I still here, holding onto us.
...this is me remembering yesterday so clearly, the cool and sunny winter days and the beautiful scenery of the valley around us.
Sometimes I drive back to that place just to relive the moment of the happiest time in my life.
...this is me wondering if you ever think about me, ever miss me.
And a hope that Ive left an impression in your heart like you've forever left in mine.
...this is me still wishing you would come back into my life as quickly as you left.
Even just as friends. Id really like that.
....this is me calling out to you, yes Ive moved on, met new people, had more laughs, shed more tears, made the best of everything I can.
But nothing compares to you!
Its been 3 years since I have seen or heard from or about you, I am sorry if I ever made you feel like in that dream, obviously I must have if my own subconscious betrays me so. I know what I did, I also know the things you did, and even though in the end you played the good part I also know how it affected you to see me act in a way you had never seen or expected. I should have been the bigger man, I m sorry.